Money Saving Ideas

As I am currently on sick leave due to my depression, I have been trying to find ways to cut back on certain expenses. These were the steps I took:

  1. Looked at all my direct debits going out each month to see if I could reduce/cancel any
    • As my phone contract was up, I found a great deal with iD mobile for only £5 per month you get 250 minutes, 5000 texts and 2.25GB of data. Thus, I reduced my £17 per month phone bill to £5.
    • I had also fallen into the ‘forgetting/not bothering’ to cancel a magazine subscription It was one of those things where I think I got 6 issues for £6 but then they carry on charging you after those six issues. Of course, you can cancel at any time, it just wasn’t high on my list of priorities before! Ok, so that’s £36 per quarter gone.
    • Gym membership! I know it’s January and I am cancelling my gym membership! One of the reasons I joined this gym was its close proximity to work, seeing as I am not in work much and I hadn’t been very often at all, this too I cancelled. I always make sure if I do join a gym that I don’t get a contract as I am so bad at going! £25 per month gone.
  2. I am sure this is on many a money saving list – but it works. Taking your own lunch to work. If you spend on average £3 a day at work just on lunch, that’s £60 every 4 weeks on lunch.
  3. When certain items are on offer in supermarkets I tend to stock up a little on long life goods, as I find if I don’t, I always need them when they are full price. These include but are not limited to:
    1. Toilet Rolls
    2. Laundry Detergent
    3. Cereal
  4. Charity shops are always good for clothes shopping. Sometimes they can be overpriced, on the other hand, you can get great deals on clothes and bric-a-brac. Some of my bargains include; a brand new Next dress for £1, books 4 for £1 and a Wedgewood cup for £1.

I would love to hear other peoples suggestions as I am always interested in saving money!

Avon Gel Shine Nail Varnish

To be honest with you I am not one who usually wears nail varnish. I always usually find that no matter which brand I use it lasts about a day and then starts chipping and looking awful.

However, I tried Avon’s Gel Shine Nail Varnish to attend my Grandma’s 80th birthday and was surprisingly impressed with it. I painted my fingernails on the Friday, and thinking I may need to top them up the next day I took the varnish with me. I did not need to top it up!

I am also by no means the neatest of people when it comes to putting on nail varnish as you can probably tell from the picture! But the varnish was easy to ‘edit’ if needed, and I got some lovely comments at my Grandma’s party.

Recently I have found that putting on nail varnish and make up does make me feel better, it gives me more confidence and almost in a way feels like I am putting a mask on and I can be someone else for a while!

The colour I chose was a lovely light blue called ‘Perriwinkle’, I am also going to try ‘So Jelly’ which is a purple shade, but Avon have plenty more shades.


I did also use the base coat and top coat to help protect my nails and further elongate their wear. At the time of writing this they are only £3.50 in price, a bargain!

25% of my profits are going to Mind and Samaritans.


Depression – To work or not to work?

I am always in two minds about whether it is better with someone with Depression and Anxiety to be off work or not.

I have had severe depression twice, once when I first went to University, and secondly now. I struggled at University with home sickness and the pressure to make friends and go out all the time, this ended with me leaving in the second year. I moved back in with my parents, got a job part-time at Marks and Spencer’s and went to the gym 3/4 times a week. This enabled me to release endorphin’s at the gym and gave me purpose with work, resulting in me returning to re-do my second year at University.

However, my second bout of depression has been substantially worse. I  began harming myself and suffering panic attacks. This resulted in me being signed off work for long periods. I have been back sporadically, but I have been feeling that my job is not helping at the moment and the best thing for both my employer and myself is to leave and focus on getting better. I feel guilty everyday I am not in, and although they have been ever so supportive, it is like I am continually letting them down. I also feel guilty about going out to the cinema, or shopping as I feel that if I am too ill to work surely I am too ill to do things I enjoy.

I have been looking for work I can do from home to try and help limit my anxiety, however there are so many spam ‘work from home’ jobs out there, that it is hard to filter out the legitimate from the dodgy. I am trying with Avon, but so far (as seen in my other post) I have not had much luck with it, but it is flexible and does allow me to have off days.

Overall, I am not sure what the best thing is. I have felt a lot better since residing myself to the truth that I am probably going to leave my current job. However, focusing on getting better will hopefully mean that in a couple of months time I can start believing in myself.

Avon Intro

To try and help with my depression and anxiety I have been looking for a job to do from home for a while. Avon seemed like the ideal thing for me as I use their products and I can be in charge of what I do and when – from home.

It has by no means been easy though, I have had issues with people already doing streets I have been allocated and it is hard to get people interested. I personally thought it would be easier as I would love to have an Avon lady!

As Mind and the Samaritans have both helped me in some way with my depression I am donating 25% of my profits to them. Avon often have great deals and just as good products as leading brands but at a fraction of the price – as I am off work at the moment this helps me!

If you have a couple of minutes please take look around my shop

Anxiety – 80th Birthday party

Last week it was my Grandma’s 80th birthday and she was having a large party/dinner over the following weekend (ie the weekend just gone). A couple of weekends before I told my mum I didn’t think I would be able to cope with it and was seriously contemplating pulling out. However, my dad and boyfriend convinced me to go and though I am glad I went, it was still am extremely hard situation for me and I struggled immensely with it.

On the drive down to the venue I was ok. I think I was so tired from barely sleeping during the night that the drive gave me time to nap! On arrival I saw people I knew getting out of their cars and I started to panic. I persuaded my boyfriend to park far away from them and we waited in the car for me to calm down. Thankfully my sister was only a few minutes behind us and my parents had stayed their the night before so we had somewhere to hide for a while.

On seeing the room full of people i vaguely knew – ie my distant relatives  – I again started to panic and said I couldn’t do it and started crying. My boyfriend and mum supported me and said I was doing well, that I needed to breathe and that it would be OK.

My boyfriend and I stood at the edge of the crowd and I said a brief hello to my auntie, uncle and cousin. After getting drinks we waited to be sat down for the food, my boyfriend found a quite place we could stand out of the way and we kept to ourselves. My parents had warned my Auntie who was organizing it that I wasn’t feeling the best and I was sat next to my mum and boyfriend at dinner to limit my anxiety.

After the cutting of the cake, my boyfriend and I made a sneaky escape up to our hotel room. The relief that swept over me as we left the dining room was immense, and I found the morning so stressful I promptly fell asleep soon after we checked in!

Although I did panic and I was by no means the life and soul of the party, talking to my family about my anxieties meant support could be put into place to enable me to attend and they were more understanding when I wanted to leave.

Today I am rather exhausted from the travelling and the stress of going so, I think a bath may be in order!

My Battle With Depression

I am often told by people I have nothing to worry or be sad about. Which is true, I even admit this! I am healthy (relatively I do have podge), I have a lovely boyfriend, a job, a career and a gorgeous new flat. As you can see, very little to be low about!

However, I am often sad for no apparent reason, I worry about nearly everything. Even small things that I am sure most people would not even think twice about. For instance, paying at till with a sales assistant for an item I would like to purchase, or having to find something else to buy as I don’t feel comfortable only buying one item!

So, for some random reason, today I decided to start a blog to write about my good days, bad days, past experiences and any other thought that may pop into my odd head. I will try hard to make it as light-hearted as possible – depression isn’t exactly the lightest of topics.

I thought I would start with a brief overview of myself. I am 29, live with my boyfriend in Cambridge UK and as of writing this I am technically a Tax/Accounts Assistant. Though I have now not been into work since about the beginning of December and in my current state I don’t think I am in any frame of mind to be trusted with people’s tax returns! My work have been so very supportive, however I am contemplating leaving soon as the guilt I suffer every day I am not in lingers over me like a dark cloud. Saying this, I am not intending to just sit around at home every day. I have every intention of getting another job – but maybe something with far less responsibility and possibly working from home where my anxieties won’t get the better of me.

My plan is to write a small blog every day about a topic I care about, a musing or just a review of my day. I am hoping this will be cathartic to both myself and any other depression sufferers. You are not alone, and although the people closest to you may not understand, there are people who feel the same as you.

If anyone would like to chat please don’t hesitate to comment below.